Irony

 

 

After I got married, things changed.  The change wasn't as much with me as with my parents and siblings. In short, times changed, dynamics changed, and kids started to grow up. It was a hard transition for me. As I wrote in the post, "You Can Count on God", I realized over time that change was inevitable and that the only thing I could trust to NOT change was God.

Justin
Ironically, I am now at another huge transition where my own kids are starting to grow up. Justin is 16 now and a sophomore in high school. He drives, he has a girlfriend, and he'd rather be with his friends than his family. It's up and down and back and forth, though, with the root of it all being that he's being driven internally to become independent.

It's not that much different from toddlerhood. You see, God has given children an inner rebellion at just the right time. It is a conflict, really. They want to please us and be with us, yet this inner drive forces them to start moving away. The beauty of it is that they act so horribly sometimes that it helps us to loosen our grip on them! God's design continually amazes me!

They come back, though, and hormones even out, so it is true......"He makes all things beautiful in His time." Ecclesiastes 3:11

And by the way, I am so proud of Justin. He is a caring, dedicated, polite, responsible, and talented young man. He works very hard in school and band, has lots of friends, and is developing into a gifted musician. I can trust him and pray that God continues to weave great things into his life.

Rachel

Apparently, you better enjoy your "little kids" when they are in elementary school, because Rachel is now 11 1/2, in sixth grade, and as tall as me. She loves middle school, and I love watching her thrive. She is on the cheerleading team, in band (trumpet!) and chorus and has her own YouTube channel. She loves Minecraft and horses.

I miss the family times, though. It's easier when we can let them stay at home sometimes and when they can take more and more care of themselves, but it has a tendency to leave you lonely.

Hannah

Hannah is 7 1/2, in second grade, and reading like a champ. It seems like only yesterday that she started preschool. She loves Minecraft and horses, too, and chooses those activities over most others. She still has a beautiful childlike spirit but as the youngest, is often drawn into the activities of the older two. I still call her my baby, and she tells me, "Sorry, Mom, but I'm growing up!".

It seems like the oldest child gets kept younger, the youngest child grows up faster, and the middle gets stuck in between. It has its good and bad points, I guess.

The good part is that I have lots of littles to borrow and can give them back when I am realizing once again how old I seem to have become!

Pinky in the Air

The whole family came to watch Rachel's dance class today. On the way, Rachel lamented that she didn't think she could keep her pinky in the air the whole time on the cruise, that she would be too tired. Steve and I about fell over laughing, thinking, "Oh, no! She's been worried about this since Steve jokingly told her she would have to keep her pinky up at the 'fancy' dinners on our upcoming Disney Cruise." Fortunately, the situation was quickly corrected when Steve explained to her that he had been jokingly referring to the episode of SpongeBob FancyPants.

Summer Vacation

I decided to check back in, and of course, realized that I haven't posted since last October (I think). What a great school year it has been! It is now Thursday night of the 1st week of summer vacation, and I am already exhausted! I thought I was supposed to start relaxing-ha! We are having fun and keeping busy. Hannah (now 14 months!) is doing a great job in the pool! Though she loves her baths, she was a bit afraid of the pool earlier in the season. She can't wait to get in now, though! She is kicking and moving her arms and grabbing the steps-I am so proud of her! I taught swim lessons in late high school/early college and love to work with the little ones. Of course, Justin and Rachel want to hang on or around me the whole time, but that is a blessing in and of itself. Justin had a GREAT day on Tuesday, a joy to be with. Today, we had more fighting, but not the whole day, so thank goodness for that!

I am reconsidering the wisdom of scheduling Justin's ENT appointment for 9 a.m.way across town, especially since the plan was to take the kids to Disney afterward, but I'll probably feel better about it in the morning. I definitely noticed a lag with myself when I didn't have a specific plan in place today. "Camp Director" is a tiring job, for sure!

Vulnerable to Exhaustion and Emotional Overload

I am TIRED.... I am ANGRY... I am SAD... I am HAPPY...I am CONFUSED...I am DELIGHTED...I am OVERCOME WITH JOY...I am SENTIMENTAL...I am WORRIED

I am TRUSTING......................