Psalms

I feel like I think the psalmist felt when they cried out in anguish to God.  I feel broken and I'm so scared of death.  It will be better in the morning, at least after a while.  But, for now, my heart just hurts......

Middle of the Night Musings

So, my sister, Krista and her family are moving, too.  They don't live right next door.  They live two hours away, and now they will live at least twice as far.  We have barely visited them, but they visit a lot.  I'm sad, happy, excited for them, thinking about them in practical ways......Gosh, I'm tired.....

Or maybe that's from the surgery I had almost 3 weeks ago.  Maybe I'm actually still healing and doing too much.  It was a blast being part of the surprise "prom" for sister Sarah's birthday.  Oh, and school starts August 10....in 9 days!

The new neighbors moved in yesterday.  Other people are moving out, so more new people will be here soon.  Man,  these are a lot of changes.  It's exciting, a bit nerve-wracking ....

By the way, it's 4:45 a.m.  I just got kicked out of my bed by my nine year old, so I am writing this in her partially finished room.

Why do we feel the need to constantly be in control?  You would think that by now I would have mastered the concept of relying on God.  Yet, I still consistently want to be in charge of my little section of the world.  My humanness just keeps getting in the way.  I believe, but my steps falter.  So, God knocks me down a bit and helps me get back up again.....every time.

Proverbs 16:18 

Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.

Proverbs 16:1
We can make our plans, but the final outcome is in God's hands.

Moving On

I'm just sad....Our neighbors of the last 11 years are moving.  My 9 year old has grown up with their family - 8 year old girl and 5 and 1 year old boys.  They have seen our son go from a first grader to a senior in high school.  Our 13 year old was two when they moved in.  They are our family in Christ. 




Good neighbors provide a unique opportunity to be spontaneous in our interactions and to minister to one another in very practical ways.  We watch out for each other, borrow when needed, offer encouragement and advice, and in the case of close neighbors, share each others' burdens.  This has been so true as the McCutchens have shared their lives and lived next door. 




To maintain a relationship, we will now need to make a much bigger effort and commitment.  We can't just look out the window or over the fence anymore.  It's an ending and a beginning. 




What will happen?  I don't really know.  I am especially sad for our youngest.  It is yet another time that my heart breaks for my child, and I have to feel so much more than is comfortable.  Meanwhile, school starts in less than two weeks.  My "children" will be in 4th, 8th, and 12th grades this year.  I thought I had more time...........treasure the moments.




...........Yet, we continue to trust and recognize God's hand in all of this (whether we want to admit it or not), because we know that He is in control and wants the very best for us.


Ecclesiastes 3:1-8




To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;  a time to plant, and time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;  a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;  a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;  a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose;  a time to keep, and time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;  a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;  a time of war, and a time of peace.